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Saturday, September 25, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
more craziness
well 2 days out from leaving... all crazy... just all seems to be a lot of hassle.
so this morning i tried to do an online checkin and the web system was having a dummy spit at me... said i have to go to the airport to check-in... argh
it's been busy at work with lots of patients trying to catch me before i go. and i'm gonna miss so many of them. one patient is an awesome cook. today he decided to bring me some honey soy chicken wings. and because i am going to the uk, he decided to make me something british... i think it was a scotch egg.
so you boil and egg. then dip it in batter and then wrap sausage meat around it. then dip it in egg wash and breadcrumbs and then deep fry... ok sounds kinda gross but it was actually very yummy.
hehehe then i got talking with another patient this morning about food. she's hilarious cos she's an older lady with a dependant partner. so she was telling me about how she learned to cook from a show called 'yan can cook'. ok so a bit of an old show but it used to be hilarous. yan just came up with the strangest recipes.
so this lady was telling me about how she boiled her pork belly in coca cola... no joke coca cola... apparently it was so nice and tender. but seriously coca cola... oh i was laughing for ages...
i'm still laughing thinking about it... and far out... yan can cook. the guy was so corny... one show he was teaching ppl how to make won ton soup. so he boiled the soup and was adding the won ton's and he was saying "one ton, two ton, tree ton..." (chinese acccented of course). oh dear... as corny as a dad joke...
so today i also got really upset... i had to make a very difficult phone call. the things you have to do... so had been having a hard time with a difficult patient. i'm glad she wasnt booked in to see me cos i dont have time for this... but in the last week she's booked 3 appointments with eric and missed all 3... and she was booked in for next week. so i just pointed out to her that her track record wasnt good and that we have a few options: i can refer her elsewhere more convenient to her if she has trouble coming to my clinic, we can charge her a cancellation fee if she doesnt give sufficient notice or she can just not make a future appointment and can just call up on the day if she knows she is free and we will fit her in if we can. anyway so she took it very well and apologised for everything and it should hopefully be ok now. i just needed to make that call before going cos otherwise poor eric is busy and she takes up appointment times but doesnt turn up.
was a rush arvo... busy again and then i went to dinner with some close friends from church. was meant to be a small, low key do but in the end there were a few people. had a great night and was great for laughs. will miss my church buddies!
so this morning i tried to do an online checkin and the web system was having a dummy spit at me... said i have to go to the airport to check-in... argh
it's been busy at work with lots of patients trying to catch me before i go. and i'm gonna miss so many of them. one patient is an awesome cook. today he decided to bring me some honey soy chicken wings. and because i am going to the uk, he decided to make me something british... i think it was a scotch egg.
so you boil and egg. then dip it in batter and then wrap sausage meat around it. then dip it in egg wash and breadcrumbs and then deep fry... ok sounds kinda gross but it was actually very yummy.
hehehe then i got talking with another patient this morning about food. she's hilarious cos she's an older lady with a dependant partner. so she was telling me about how she learned to cook from a show called 'yan can cook'. ok so a bit of an old show but it used to be hilarous. yan just came up with the strangest recipes.
so this lady was telling me about how she boiled her pork belly in coca cola... no joke coca cola... apparently it was so nice and tender. but seriously coca cola... oh i was laughing for ages...
i'm still laughing thinking about it... and far out... yan can cook. the guy was so corny... one show he was teaching ppl how to make won ton soup. so he boiled the soup and was adding the won ton's and he was saying "one ton, two ton, tree ton..." (chinese acccented of course). oh dear... as corny as a dad joke...
so today i also got really upset... i had to make a very difficult phone call. the things you have to do... so had been having a hard time with a difficult patient. i'm glad she wasnt booked in to see me cos i dont have time for this... but in the last week she's booked 3 appointments with eric and missed all 3... and she was booked in for next week. so i just pointed out to her that her track record wasnt good and that we have a few options: i can refer her elsewhere more convenient to her if she has trouble coming to my clinic, we can charge her a cancellation fee if she doesnt give sufficient notice or she can just not make a future appointment and can just call up on the day if she knows she is free and we will fit her in if we can. anyway so she took it very well and apologised for everything and it should hopefully be ok now. i just needed to make that call before going cos otherwise poor eric is busy and she takes up appointment times but doesnt turn up.
was a rush arvo... busy again and then i went to dinner with some close friends from church. was meant to be a small, low key do but in the end there were a few people. had a great night and was great for laughs. will miss my church buddies!
Monday, September 20, 2010
language difficulties
ok a funny little anecdote... well i found this funny.
i dont speak chinese!! i know i look it but i just dont.
one of my patients brought his mum and dad in to see me this morning. he explained some stuff and translated some things and then had to go to work and then i was left treating both of them. which was kinda funny cos they dont speak english and i dont speak chinese. i can ask if there is pain and tell ppl to breath in and out (for drop piece) and say sit and stand and that's about it...
so anyway while i was treating the mum, the dad was poking around my shelf - has massage oil, lotion, creams like magnesium, arnica etc that i use, strapping tape etc (you get the idea). anyway... i use massage lotion sometimes cos it's nicer on my hands and doesnt run everywhere like oil. it is a lotion that becomes oily with the heat of the skin.
well the dad must have thought that it was moisturising cream cos he started helping himself... and i was like... errr... i couldnt tell him that it's not so i guess he would have found out when it just became oily on his skin... but i couldnt laugh either and i wanted to so much...
then this arvo one of my interns had a japanese patient... we chatted after and i just kept mixing my vocab up eg tsukate vs tsukute (to use, to make). haha wat a fool i am cos i've just forgotten so much. he must have been walking out laughing.
i dont speak chinese!! i know i look it but i just dont.
one of my patients brought his mum and dad in to see me this morning. he explained some stuff and translated some things and then had to go to work and then i was left treating both of them. which was kinda funny cos they dont speak english and i dont speak chinese. i can ask if there is pain and tell ppl to breath in and out (for drop piece) and say sit and stand and that's about it...
so anyway while i was treating the mum, the dad was poking around my shelf - has massage oil, lotion, creams like magnesium, arnica etc that i use, strapping tape etc (you get the idea). anyway... i use massage lotion sometimes cos it's nicer on my hands and doesnt run everywhere like oil. it is a lotion that becomes oily with the heat of the skin.
well the dad must have thought that it was moisturising cream cos he started helping himself... and i was like... errr... i couldnt tell him that it's not so i guess he would have found out when it just became oily on his skin... but i couldnt laugh either and i wanted to so much...
then this arvo one of my interns had a japanese patient... we chatted after and i just kept mixing my vocab up eg tsukate vs tsukute (to use, to make). haha wat a fool i am cos i've just forgotten so much. he must have been walking out laughing.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
craziness
well i'm off to the uk on the 25th sept. things have just been crazy busy leading up to going.
i guess i was a little worried about finances going away. there is the concern about leaving my baby clinic. but i think that the clinic will be ok. have felt like i needed a break since my last trip o'seas was 6 yrs ago. and i've wanted to go to the uk for a while now. so doing some chiro stuff over there gives me an excuse and also makes some of the trip tax deductible.
but... i also picked up a heap of shifts at mac uni. i kinda feel like i dont leave there actually cos i was doing mon, wed, thur and sat with rugby. one weekend i did oxfam sat and golden oldies rugby on sun so i was working 12 days stright.
chuck in church weekend away and kelly and greg's wedding on the weekends and it's been pretty hectic.
in hindsight i guess i might not have taken on so much but i guess you just put your head down and do it. so a week out i'm extremely sleep deprived and just tired in general including emotionally.
i'm actually very mindful of busy-ness atm. it's great that i have some great girls to keep me accountable. i have been working on my wed's which i tend to like to have off in the light of my 12 hr days on mon and tue. i also like to just be meeting up with people or having some time out to do errands and read the bible or other books to get my brain and heart ticking.
bible reading tends to go out the window when i'm tired but it's actually been good lately cos i know that i have a problem and i'm just making an effort. the challenge with travel too is going to be taking the timeout to spend with God and prayer time. it's harder when i dont have my awesome gals around to pray with and to chat through stuff with.
taking on the extra shift on monday kinda means i dont stick around so late at church which has been a bit of a bummer. it's just such a long day on mon that i cant afford to be getting home after midnight and waking up early. but i miss the conversations or rather fun, stupid mucking around with ppl.
i've just been informed that i wont be having the 12-4 shift on mon when i get back so i guess that is somewhat of a blessing. (will see what my finances are like when i get back but i'm guessing my clinic will also be busy). but yeh means that if i have a late night on sun i can have a powernap on mon arvo before going to clinic.
stressed about the planning for the trip. 2 weeks out and esther has told me that she is bailing on me with the road trip which is just great considering i had changed some of my travel plans to accommodate her. anyway the ireland coach tour was paid up so she will just have to meet me to do that.
oh well i had wanted to travel by myself anyway cos i was just gonna wing it. means i only have to please myself.
kelly and greg's wedding was also quite stressful cos i was helping out with wedding co-ordination duties. all was fine for the church but then they were running late with the reception. stuff had to get shuffled around. executive decisions made but in the end it all worked out well and it was a great day for the bride and groom cos it's their day so that's all that matters.
will have to write later about it cos there were many many funny moments.
so yeh 1 week out... i'm not sure how i feel... tired...
i guess i was a little worried about finances going away. there is the concern about leaving my baby clinic. but i think that the clinic will be ok. have felt like i needed a break since my last trip o'seas was 6 yrs ago. and i've wanted to go to the uk for a while now. so doing some chiro stuff over there gives me an excuse and also makes some of the trip tax deductible.
but... i also picked up a heap of shifts at mac uni. i kinda feel like i dont leave there actually cos i was doing mon, wed, thur and sat with rugby. one weekend i did oxfam sat and golden oldies rugby on sun so i was working 12 days stright.
chuck in church weekend away and kelly and greg's wedding on the weekends and it's been pretty hectic.
in hindsight i guess i might not have taken on so much but i guess you just put your head down and do it. so a week out i'm extremely sleep deprived and just tired in general including emotionally.
i'm actually very mindful of busy-ness atm. it's great that i have some great girls to keep me accountable. i have been working on my wed's which i tend to like to have off in the light of my 12 hr days on mon and tue. i also like to just be meeting up with people or having some time out to do errands and read the bible or other books to get my brain and heart ticking.
bible reading tends to go out the window when i'm tired but it's actually been good lately cos i know that i have a problem and i'm just making an effort. the challenge with travel too is going to be taking the timeout to spend with God and prayer time. it's harder when i dont have my awesome gals around to pray with and to chat through stuff with.
taking on the extra shift on monday kinda means i dont stick around so late at church which has been a bit of a bummer. it's just such a long day on mon that i cant afford to be getting home after midnight and waking up early. but i miss the conversations or rather fun, stupid mucking around with ppl.
i've just been informed that i wont be having the 12-4 shift on mon when i get back so i guess that is somewhat of a blessing. (will see what my finances are like when i get back but i'm guessing my clinic will also be busy). but yeh means that if i have a late night on sun i can have a powernap on mon arvo before going to clinic.
stressed about the planning for the trip. 2 weeks out and esther has told me that she is bailing on me with the road trip which is just great considering i had changed some of my travel plans to accommodate her. anyway the ireland coach tour was paid up so she will just have to meet me to do that.
oh well i had wanted to travel by myself anyway cos i was just gonna wing it. means i only have to please myself.
kelly and greg's wedding was also quite stressful cos i was helping out with wedding co-ordination duties. all was fine for the church but then they were running late with the reception. stuff had to get shuffled around. executive decisions made but in the end it all worked out well and it was a great day for the bride and groom cos it's their day so that's all that matters.
will have to write later about it cos there were many many funny moments.
so yeh 1 week out... i'm not sure how i feel... tired...
Monday, August 09, 2010
funneee
one of my interns totally cracked me up today...
was reading his clinical notes and he said "soft tissue work T-band"
and i was thinking 'what on earth is T band?' like where?
so i asked him and he pointed to the front of his shin...
and i'm like... oh u mean tibialis anterior... and he said "yes T-band"
apparently the lecturers always refer to it as that... so i'm like... oh "tib ant!"
funneeee
was reading his clinical notes and he said "soft tissue work T-band"
and i was thinking 'what on earth is T band?' like where?
so i asked him and he pointed to the front of his shin...
and i'm like... oh u mean tibialis anterior... and he said "yes T-band"
apparently the lecturers always refer to it as that... so i'm like... oh "tib ant!"
funneeee
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
stuff... oh and twist...
it's hard to describe what's been happening in the last few weeks cos it's all a blur.
daph's mum's funeral was on mon 21st june. it seems like a dream cos i just dont remember. was trying so hard to keep it together.
i also crashed my car into a pole at mac centre the day before cos i was upset.
twist... good being away. felt vulnerable and ended up getting slammed in the songwriters workshop.
got there without getting too lost...
funniest thing... well for me was getting up for orderlies on sat morning. i'm sooo not a morning person so my idea of fun at camps is to climb out of bed about 10 mins before breakfast (if i even make it there) and chuck on something. brush my hair and maybe teeth before walking with my eyes still half closed to breakfast.
but... i was on orderlies which meant being there 15 mins before breakfast to set up tables etc.
i was going to go do orderlies and then climb back into bed... anyway so i get up maybe around 30-45mins before breakfast and wander into a shared bathroom. (the other dorm on the opposite side of the block shares a bathroom with us - we each have doors on opposite ends). so i walk into the bathroom... and wow... there's all these aussie young girls putting on makeup and getting ready... seriously it's a camp! such overkill...
gee and on sunday morning i didnt even make it to breakfast and ended up being a tad late to my workshop... sooo not a morning person!
but me being sleepy might have something to do with the late night jam session in the boatshed at the youthworks site... sooo much fun!!
hmmm i think i come out of twist realising a couple of things:
- i'm not a songwriter... better stick to being a muso (playing not writing)
- i actually find emu music too formulaic and boring...
daph's mum's funeral was on mon 21st june. it seems like a dream cos i just dont remember. was trying so hard to keep it together.
i also crashed my car into a pole at mac centre the day before cos i was upset.
twist... good being away. felt vulnerable and ended up getting slammed in the songwriters workshop.
got there without getting too lost...
funniest thing... well for me was getting up for orderlies on sat morning. i'm sooo not a morning person so my idea of fun at camps is to climb out of bed about 10 mins before breakfast (if i even make it there) and chuck on something. brush my hair and maybe teeth before walking with my eyes still half closed to breakfast.
but... i was on orderlies which meant being there 15 mins before breakfast to set up tables etc.
i was going to go do orderlies and then climb back into bed... anyway so i get up maybe around 30-45mins before breakfast and wander into a shared bathroom. (the other dorm on the opposite side of the block shares a bathroom with us - we each have doors on opposite ends). so i walk into the bathroom... and wow... there's all these aussie young girls putting on makeup and getting ready... seriously it's a camp! such overkill...
gee and on sunday morning i didnt even make it to breakfast and ended up being a tad late to my workshop... sooo not a morning person!
but me being sleepy might have something to do with the late night jam session in the boatshed at the youthworks site... sooo much fun!!
hmmm i think i come out of twist realising a couple of things:
- i'm not a songwriter... better stick to being a muso (playing not writing)
- i actually find emu music too formulaic and boring...
Friday, June 18, 2010
God is enough...
ok this post might be added to at later dates...
basically i bought a book at Equip called 'God is enough' by Ray Galea.
http://www.matthiasmedia.com.au/god-is-enough
each chapter focuses on a Psalm and kinda goes through it in little chunks and in devotional style...
so i've been reading this book and really enjoy it. might be because i do really like the psalms. they are very poetic at times and angry psalms are great to read when ur feeling not so good...
so i thought i'd do my own devotional 'chapter' on some psalms that werent in the book but i really like.
Psalm 24
v 1-2 "The earth is the Lord's and everything in it, the world and all who live in it.
For he founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters.."
We're studying Job in bible study and in the last few chapters God speaks to Job "where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?..." (Job 38)
In the context of Job we see God's character - He is the amazing God who created all things and who sustains all things. Who knows all things. And who are we to question His wisdom...
This earth is amazing... look at creation. The other night i looked up at the stars at a friend's place and just marveled at creation. That God spoke and night became night and day was day and the stars in the heavens shine beautifully and constantly. And God is in charge of all of that...
He's also in charge of everything below the heavens cos He created it all...
These verses are a good opening reminding us of God's sovereignty and might in creation. But that we need to be humble in approaching God because we and everything on this earth belong to him.
basically i bought a book at Equip called 'God is enough' by Ray Galea.
http://www.matthiasmedia.com.au/god-is-enough
each chapter focuses on a Psalm and kinda goes through it in little chunks and in devotional style...
so i've been reading this book and really enjoy it. might be because i do really like the psalms. they are very poetic at times and angry psalms are great to read when ur feeling not so good...
so i thought i'd do my own devotional 'chapter' on some psalms that werent in the book but i really like.
Psalm 24
v 1-2 "The earth is the Lord's and everything in it, the world and all who live in it.
For he founded it upon the seas and established it upon the waters.."
We're studying Job in bible study and in the last few chapters God speaks to Job "where were you when I laid the earth's foundation?..." (Job 38)
In the context of Job we see God's character - He is the amazing God who created all things and who sustains all things. Who knows all things. And who are we to question His wisdom...
This earth is amazing... look at creation. The other night i looked up at the stars at a friend's place and just marveled at creation. That God spoke and night became night and day was day and the stars in the heavens shine beautifully and constantly. And God is in charge of all of that...
He's also in charge of everything below the heavens cos He created it all...
These verses are a good opening reminding us of God's sovereignty and might in creation. But that we need to be humble in approaching God because we and everything on this earth belong to him.
black friday 11/6/2010
i dont know what to call this post...
i was out on friday night with friends when i got the worst call i've ever received in my life...
my best friend's mum had passed away very suddenly. she was like my 2nd mum and i just didnt know how to handle it all...
being out was torture... i just wanted to cry but i didnt want to ruin my friends' night. and then i just didnt want to be alone with my head. it was nice to be out.
for the first time in my life i thought about drinking away my sorrows... but i didnt get very far... only managed 3 drinks before just feeling terrible.
anyway, the friends i was with cheered me up... funny incident where clive was getting picked up by a guy at the bar... i caught it on video as well as having photographic evidence... sooo funny...
think the rest of the night was just getting lost in soccer...
i didnt manage to sleep at all that night cos i was just too upset... rugby the next day was a bit tough cos of no sleep.
sat night i was having ppl from church over to watch a movie and hang out... and i just wasnt sure whether i should cancel.
did go over to d's on sat arvo to see how the family are doing. i dont really know what to say or do... i want to be helpful but dont want to be in the way...
it was nice not to be alone sat night... just to feed of the energy of the people who came over. was a good night. we didnt end up watching a movie but just played a couple of light games and chatted.
the week is now a bit of a blur... every day has been busy with something. just feel like i'm going through the motions.
might just be that i feel so 'blah' today...
i was out on friday night with friends when i got the worst call i've ever received in my life...
my best friend's mum had passed away very suddenly. she was like my 2nd mum and i just didnt know how to handle it all...
being out was torture... i just wanted to cry but i didnt want to ruin my friends' night. and then i just didnt want to be alone with my head. it was nice to be out.
for the first time in my life i thought about drinking away my sorrows... but i didnt get very far... only managed 3 drinks before just feeling terrible.
anyway, the friends i was with cheered me up... funny incident where clive was getting picked up by a guy at the bar... i caught it on video as well as having photographic evidence... sooo funny...
think the rest of the night was just getting lost in soccer...
i didnt manage to sleep at all that night cos i was just too upset... rugby the next day was a bit tough cos of no sleep.
sat night i was having ppl from church over to watch a movie and hang out... and i just wasnt sure whether i should cancel.
did go over to d's on sat arvo to see how the family are doing. i dont really know what to say or do... i want to be helpful but dont want to be in the way...
it was nice not to be alone sat night... just to feed of the energy of the people who came over. was a good night. we didnt end up watching a movie but just played a couple of light games and chatted.
the week is now a bit of a blur... every day has been busy with something. just feel like i'm going through the motions.
might just be that i feel so 'blah' today...
Sunday, June 13, 2010
another rugby story
ah my interns are cheeky...
i dunno if this is funny or just me finding it funny...
i was signing off paperwork on the intern's patient sheet. they basically list the patients they saw and then what they did briefly. i sign it off for a patient number.
so i was going through names when i saw "johnny wilkinson"... and thought this cant be right. hey i know next to nothing about rugby but i do know who johnny wilkinson is... so i pulled the intern up on it... i was like 'hey what dodgy r u trying to pull'
the guy's name was actually something similar but he'd written the wrong thing down. it was funny...
i dunno if this is funny or just me finding it funny...
i was signing off paperwork on the intern's patient sheet. they basically list the patients they saw and then what they did briefly. i sign it off for a patient number.
so i was going through names when i saw "johnny wilkinson"... and thought this cant be right. hey i know next to nothing about rugby but i do know who johnny wilkinson is... so i pulled the intern up on it... i was like 'hey what dodgy r u trying to pull'
the guy's name was actually something similar but he'd written the wrong thing down. it was funny...
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Equip #3 - Ugly Envy
Ok... picking at this so i should just post it...
the 2nd main talk at Equip was on envy... ewww ugly envy...
main points:
1. envy is personal
it's the pain felt over another's good fortune. different to jealousy or greed as these focus on the object or possessions of others... envy is ill will towards the person
the actions of the envious are intent on destroying somebody else's happiness... so destructive... so ugly!!
2. Gk envy interchangable with jealousy... hard to read. but contextual differences. looked at some bible passages about envy...
3. what causes envy?
- human sinfulness - our selfishness and self-centredness
- when we question God's goodness and are ungrateful.
i think this is hard... envy exposes the fact that we dont trust God
- we enjoy being envied - it kinda follows pride... we want to be looked at and envied. so envy kinda feeds envy and again it's selfishness and the focus on self and our gratification or self esteem issues.
4. envy is destructive
- it poisons our relationship with God. we undermine our own relationship with God by resenting the fact that He has given something good to somebody else.
- it poisons our relationships with others.
enough said really...
- it poisons us. envy doesnt make anybody happy. we arent happy cos envy tends to eat away at you... it only creates pain.
5. how to get rid of envy
- own up - recognise it in yourself
- the Gospel - be reminded of the good gift that has been given to us in Jesus.
- progressing
--> thankfulness
--> understanding what pushes your buttons
--> God's word, the Spirit, other Xn support.
ok that's the summary...
my challenges/encouragement:
i think it has a lot to do with thankfulness and contentment. sometimes it's easier to be discontent and to grumble.
sometimes when we are envious of somebody (or maybe i'm speaking in the context of jealousy cos it's hard to separate the two sometimes...) we only see the thing we are envious/jealous of... like if we envy something about another person's life we dont see that sometimes their situations have a different set of problems. not sure if i'm making sense writing this out but it's clear in my head...
i'm quite a happy go lucky person. i try not to let things get me down too much... but u cant be happy all the time... i guess there isnt anything that i need that i dont have. even though there may be wants. so i'm kinda thankful for that.
i'm grieved at how destructive and yuk and ugly envy looks... just in terms of relationships. how on earth are such yucky thoughts in us... how easy is it for us to be envious... how easily the devil can get inside and make us think such awful things about other people... i just think it's awesome that the solution to that is to focus on what Jesus has done. the fact that our sin is paid for... but also that we can recognise the things that hurt our relationship with God and others... and that the Spirit allows us to change.
awww what a challenging talk... i repent... help me God to be rid of yucky envy cos i wanna be like Jesus...
the 2nd main talk at Equip was on envy... ewww ugly envy...
main points:
1. envy is personal
it's the pain felt over another's good fortune. different to jealousy or greed as these focus on the object or possessions of others... envy is ill will towards the person
the actions of the envious are intent on destroying somebody else's happiness... so destructive... so ugly!!
2. Gk envy interchangable with jealousy... hard to read. but contextual differences. looked at some bible passages about envy...
3. what causes envy?
- human sinfulness - our selfishness and self-centredness
- when we question God's goodness and are ungrateful.
i think this is hard... envy exposes the fact that we dont trust God
- we enjoy being envied - it kinda follows pride... we want to be looked at and envied. so envy kinda feeds envy and again it's selfishness and the focus on self and our gratification or self esteem issues.
4. envy is destructive
- it poisons our relationship with God. we undermine our own relationship with God by resenting the fact that He has given something good to somebody else.
- it poisons our relationships with others.
enough said really...
- it poisons us. envy doesnt make anybody happy. we arent happy cos envy tends to eat away at you... it only creates pain.
5. how to get rid of envy
- own up - recognise it in yourself
- the Gospel - be reminded of the good gift that has been given to us in Jesus.
- progressing
--> thankfulness
--> understanding what pushes your buttons
--> God's word, the Spirit, other Xn support.
ok that's the summary...
my challenges/encouragement:
i think it has a lot to do with thankfulness and contentment. sometimes it's easier to be discontent and to grumble.
sometimes when we are envious of somebody (or maybe i'm speaking in the context of jealousy cos it's hard to separate the two sometimes...) we only see the thing we are envious/jealous of... like if we envy something about another person's life we dont see that sometimes their situations have a different set of problems. not sure if i'm making sense writing this out but it's clear in my head...
i'm quite a happy go lucky person. i try not to let things get me down too much... but u cant be happy all the time... i guess there isnt anything that i need that i dont have. even though there may be wants. so i'm kinda thankful for that.
i'm grieved at how destructive and yuk and ugly envy looks... just in terms of relationships. how on earth are such yucky thoughts in us... how easy is it for us to be envious... how easily the devil can get inside and make us think such awful things about other people... i just think it's awesome that the solution to that is to focus on what Jesus has done. the fact that our sin is paid for... but also that we can recognise the things that hurt our relationship with God and others... and that the Spirit allows us to change.
awww what a challenging talk... i repent... help me God to be rid of yucky envy cos i wanna be like Jesus...
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Equip #2
[post is 1 week after event... cos i write in bits and the blog sits in my drafts folder for a bit]...
The first main talk was titled 'Pure Escapism' from 2 Peter 1
- The great escape is ours from death to life in Christ
- What do we escape to?
this bit challenged me the most. 2 Peter tells us to make every effort to live like God - putting on virtue, knowledge, self contraol, steadfastness, Godliness, brotherly affection and love.
the speaker said sometimes the reason why we lack these qualities or lack growth in these things is:
- we are too close to see
- we are too busy to think or to make an effort
- we are too complacent to care - have we forgotten grace?
the awesome thing is if we are increasing in Godliness then we confirm who we are in Christ and that we remember what we have escaped from and what we have escaped to.
The first main talk was titled 'Pure Escapism' from 2 Peter 1
- The great escape is ours from death to life in Christ
- What do we escape to?
this bit challenged me the most. 2 Peter tells us to make every effort to live like God - putting on virtue, knowledge, self contraol, steadfastness, Godliness, brotherly affection and love.
the speaker said sometimes the reason why we lack these qualities or lack growth in these things is:
- we are too close to see
- we are too busy to think or to make an effort
- we are too complacent to care - have we forgotten grace?
the awesome thing is if we are increasing in Godliness then we confirm who we are in Christ and that we remember what we have escaped from and what we have escaped to.
equip #1 - the fineprint of feminism
i'm gonna download equip slowly so prob add more to the post if i get a chance... or not if i dont get a chance?
this is in bits though so i thought i'd start downloading the elective i went to cos i was at twilight session and so elective is before main talks.
the electives this year all sounded pretty good. it came down to "confessions of a shopaholic" or "fineprint of feminism"...
decided on feminism in the end... i'm not sure why... just wanted to hear claire smith's take on it. also i guess been thinking through things like submission and authority lately.
so this is kinda a summary of the talk:
history of feminism:
eg womens' lib movement, gender equality and lately the ambiguity of sexuality and gender
some good points of feminism:
- social justice (God uses feminism to get this even though feminism does not recognise God's agenda) eg. rape in marriage condemned, domestic violence recognised and condemned
- gender based inequality can be contrary to God's purpose - God creates man and woman in His image.
Feminism's warped view of God
- trying to feminise the devine - not God the Father but "parent", "mother"
- rejecting the bible as it was written by men and is 'patriarchal'
- re-ordering the trinity - they dont like the nature of authority and submission in the relationships within the trinity so they say that the submission of the Son to the Father's will was cultural and one-off for the purpose of salvation. There are no implications for today and therefore authority and submission or created order arent relevant concepts today. [i have to think about this point a little more]
- Jesus was a man - they use some parts of the bible to accuse him of chauvinism.
Some biblical truths
- God the 'Father'!! only God can name God and Jesus refers to God the Father.
- God made gender - it's not incidental or a handicap. Man and woman were made in the image of God and gender is an essential part of our identity. Gender not an indication of worth as Jesus died for all.
- Jesus shows countercultural respect for women and their role in his ministry.
Cultural concepts
- the rise of careerism and identity that is found in what we do
- rejection of gender or sexuality
- sexual revolution - the pill and women free to be sexually promiscuous
- changing of views of sex - about power, and self not giving to the other person
- society focus on self autonomy
the bottom line:
Can you be a Christian and a feminist?
I think not. Jesus says anybody who wants to be great must be a servant. Jesus lost his rights to serve and save those he loved. Feminism seeks power and is self-seeking. It's focus is contrary to Jesus' and contrary to God's plan for humanity.
.... well that's what i got out of that elective... was really good to think about it (although i wouldnt have called myself a feminist before). i have a better understanding of feminism.
this is in bits though so i thought i'd start downloading the elective i went to cos i was at twilight session and so elective is before main talks.
the electives this year all sounded pretty good. it came down to "confessions of a shopaholic" or "fineprint of feminism"...
decided on feminism in the end... i'm not sure why... just wanted to hear claire smith's take on it. also i guess been thinking through things like submission and authority lately.
so this is kinda a summary of the talk:
history of feminism:
eg womens' lib movement, gender equality and lately the ambiguity of sexuality and gender
some good points of feminism:
- social justice (God uses feminism to get this even though feminism does not recognise God's agenda) eg. rape in marriage condemned, domestic violence recognised and condemned
- gender based inequality can be contrary to God's purpose - God creates man and woman in His image.
Feminism's warped view of God
- trying to feminise the devine - not God the Father but "parent", "mother"
- rejecting the bible as it was written by men and is 'patriarchal'
- re-ordering the trinity - they dont like the nature of authority and submission in the relationships within the trinity so they say that the submission of the Son to the Father's will was cultural and one-off for the purpose of salvation. There are no implications for today and therefore authority and submission or created order arent relevant concepts today. [i have to think about this point a little more]
- Jesus was a man - they use some parts of the bible to accuse him of chauvinism.
Some biblical truths
- God the 'Father'!! only God can name God and Jesus refers to God the Father.
- God made gender - it's not incidental or a handicap. Man and woman were made in the image of God and gender is an essential part of our identity. Gender not an indication of worth as Jesus died for all.
- Jesus shows countercultural respect for women and their role in his ministry.
Cultural concepts
- the rise of careerism and identity that is found in what we do
- rejection of gender or sexuality
- sexual revolution - the pill and women free to be sexually promiscuous
- changing of views of sex - about power, and self not giving to the other person
- society focus on self autonomy
the bottom line:
Can you be a Christian and a feminist?
I think not. Jesus says anybody who wants to be great must be a servant. Jesus lost his rights to serve and save those he loved. Feminism seeks power and is self-seeking. It's focus is contrary to Jesus' and contrary to God's plan for humanity.
.... well that's what i got out of that elective... was really good to think about it (although i wouldnt have called myself a feminist before). i have a better understanding of feminism.
Friday, May 07, 2010
fun with lev lev
well today is lev lev's b'day...
yesterday night we went out for sushi to celebrate...
i miss those guys... soooo funny...
i think you have to be there cos this isnt going to seem funny...
but lev lev got a toy me-to-you bear that had a monkey costume on it... and you could remove the monkey clothes... so she and cyn were having fun taking monkey clothes off... and lev was making comments in a restaurant mind you... a little too loudly saying stuff like "dont take my clothes off..." .... embarrassing...
hehe but i got her back later... in the bathroom, she was in the toilet and i was walking out... i decided to switch the lights off... then felt bad so turned them back on... so they were off for all of 5 seconds at the most.
lev gets back to the table and starts going on about how i switched the lights off... and i was like... "only for 5 seconds!!"
and she said... "a lot can happen in 5 seconds..."
so other people started chiming in with ideas about what can happen in 5 seconds... eg:
- she could miss (but she's not a boy...)
- she could fall off?
- she could fall in...
it was soooo funny... ah toilet humour...
my tummy hurts from eating too much and laughing too hard...
yesterday night we went out for sushi to celebrate...
i miss those guys... soooo funny...
i think you have to be there cos this isnt going to seem funny...
but lev lev got a toy me-to-you bear that had a monkey costume on it... and you could remove the monkey clothes... so she and cyn were having fun taking monkey clothes off... and lev was making comments in a restaurant mind you... a little too loudly saying stuff like "dont take my clothes off..." .... embarrassing...
hehe but i got her back later... in the bathroom, she was in the toilet and i was walking out... i decided to switch the lights off... then felt bad so turned them back on... so they were off for all of 5 seconds at the most.
lev gets back to the table and starts going on about how i switched the lights off... and i was like... "only for 5 seconds!!"
and she said... "a lot can happen in 5 seconds..."
so other people started chiming in with ideas about what can happen in 5 seconds... eg:
- she could miss (but she's not a boy...)
- she could fall off?
- she could fall in...
it was soooo funny... ah toilet humour...
my tummy hurts from eating too much and laughing too hard...
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
downloading
i'm a bit scared that i'm starting to get my second wind now... when i really should be going to sleep.
it's almost midnight and i've worked 2 x 12-13 hr days... i was absolutely knackered so i decided to climb into bed cos it's nice and warm. so listening to music hoping i would fall asleep but my mind is still going...
some random things i've been thinking about lately...
- do i just get busy and get caught up in what i'm doing? does it mean i neglect listening to the things that are going on around me and does it mean i stop caring for people in the way i should??
so i thought about how i could be active in caring... how can i be remembering not to be self absorbed?? lol...
- last sunday's talk at church was about prayer... have been reading valley of vision a lot which is puritan prayers. love it...
the speaker talked about the fact that Abraham was challenging God to save Soddom. the way he spoke to God was bold yet humble. he approached God with reverence but his manner was almost challenging God.
some thing i was thinking about after the sermon was the nature of my relationship with God... like how i approach God and prayer and the types of things i pray for.
- i'm wondering why people seem to download on me at work. i find people with 'psycho-social overlay' problems very draining. am wondering how to deal with it without losing compassion. i've learnt to leave work at work but how do i move on while i'm still at work?? cos at the end of some days i'm just soooo exhausted. not physically but mentally.
- one of my interns tried to personality type me... i dont think he was totally correct... so i decided to take a myer briggs test online. i did it in yr 11 but cant remember.
my results:
I - definitely introverted. definitely need private/personal timeout
S - actually i'm probably somewhere in the middle of sensing and intuitive but lean more towards sensing
F - i'm also somewhere in the middle between thinking and feeling because i'm definitely quite logical but am ruled a lot by feelings, popular opinion and react to conflict
P - i actually thought i was a more of a J (judging) person but when i did this only one thing fell into that category.. the P part of me does like to multitask, i do my best work close to deadlines (eg starting assignments at 8pm the night before they are due...) and avoid committments that interfere with freedom and flexibility. but i'm a J person in that i do like to plan things (i just never seem to stick to plans and become disorganised)
Introverted (I) 56.76% Extroverted (E) 43.24%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N) 50%
Feeling (F) 61.76% Thinking (T) 38.24%
Perceiving (P) 51.28% Judging (J) 48.72%
Take Free Myers-Briggs Personality Test
it's almost midnight and i've worked 2 x 12-13 hr days... i was absolutely knackered so i decided to climb into bed cos it's nice and warm. so listening to music hoping i would fall asleep but my mind is still going...
some random things i've been thinking about lately...
- do i just get busy and get caught up in what i'm doing? does it mean i neglect listening to the things that are going on around me and does it mean i stop caring for people in the way i should??
so i thought about how i could be active in caring... how can i be remembering not to be self absorbed?? lol...
- last sunday's talk at church was about prayer... have been reading valley of vision a lot which is puritan prayers. love it...
the speaker talked about the fact that Abraham was challenging God to save Soddom. the way he spoke to God was bold yet humble. he approached God with reverence but his manner was almost challenging God.
some thing i was thinking about after the sermon was the nature of my relationship with God... like how i approach God and prayer and the types of things i pray for.
- i'm wondering why people seem to download on me at work. i find people with 'psycho-social overlay' problems very draining. am wondering how to deal with it without losing compassion. i've learnt to leave work at work but how do i move on while i'm still at work?? cos at the end of some days i'm just soooo exhausted. not physically but mentally.
- one of my interns tried to personality type me... i dont think he was totally correct... so i decided to take a myer briggs test online. i did it in yr 11 but cant remember.
my results:
I - definitely introverted. definitely need private/personal timeout
S - actually i'm probably somewhere in the middle of sensing and intuitive but lean more towards sensing
F - i'm also somewhere in the middle between thinking and feeling because i'm definitely quite logical but am ruled a lot by feelings, popular opinion and react to conflict
P - i actually thought i was a more of a J (judging) person but when i did this only one thing fell into that category.. the P part of me does like to multitask, i do my best work close to deadlines (eg starting assignments at 8pm the night before they are due...) and avoid committments that interfere with freedom and flexibility. but i'm a J person in that i do like to plan things (i just never seem to stick to plans and become disorganised)
Introverted (I) 56.76% Extroverted (E) 43.24%
Sensing (S) 50% Intuitive (N) 50%
Feeling (F) 61.76% Thinking (T) 38.24%
Perceiving (P) 51.28% Judging (J) 48.72%
| ISFP - "Artist". Interested in the fine arts. Expression primarily through action or art form. The senses are keener than in other types. 8.8% of total population. |
Monday, May 03, 2010
i must have a 'kick me' sign on my back...
well it's been a crazy long day...
worked at my clinic 8-11:30am then dashed off to mac uni eastwood clinic for my 12-8pm shift.
so was good to meet the 12-4 interns at the clinic. i already knew one guy from some fieldwork. it's a quiet shift and i'm not used to just sitting around so i decided to wander around to see what the interns are up to when they werent seeing patients. some were practising and so i sat in to give some feedback and learn some stuff from them myself. it's actually quite fun...
and i think the guys appreciated me taking an interest in helping them rather than just sitting around like other supervisors apparently do... but i get bored so i like to be doing. anyway... so i got to know some of the interns but i have no idea how i end up getting paid out so much... and i dont even know these guys... like first time i've met them and i'm already being paid out by them...
one of my regulars reckons it's cos i react... also i guess i'm friendly and take an interest so they kinda act like i'm just one of them...
but they are my interns!! so there should be some respect there!! cos otherwise i refuse to sign off on their paperwork and no numbers for them!! hrumph!!
lol... nah i'm having fun... just feel like i'm walking around with a big 'kick me' sign on my back... that ppl who meet me for 5 mins are comfortable enough to start paying me out!
anyway... was thinking about one of my previous posts about the rugby... and how i might need to learn to 'crude up'.
and i realised that no that's not who i am...
i think that what comes out of your mouth reflects the things in your head and heart... and i'm so not perfect in that area... everytime i read the book of James i feel challenged and the Spirit pierces my heart again because i know that i fall down in so many ways.
but i dont really need to add to it all by participating in crude jokes and i think i need to be more sensitive in what i do say even as a joke or pay out.
so i guess on reflection i'm glad that people feel comfortable enough with me to pay me out. and maybe i'll react because i'm innocent and that's who i am... but hopefully people can see that it's cos i'm a Christian...
worked at my clinic 8-11:30am then dashed off to mac uni eastwood clinic for my 12-8pm shift.
so was good to meet the 12-4 interns at the clinic. i already knew one guy from some fieldwork. it's a quiet shift and i'm not used to just sitting around so i decided to wander around to see what the interns are up to when they werent seeing patients. some were practising and so i sat in to give some feedback and learn some stuff from them myself. it's actually quite fun...
and i think the guys appreciated me taking an interest in helping them rather than just sitting around like other supervisors apparently do... but i get bored so i like to be doing. anyway... so i got to know some of the interns but i have no idea how i end up getting paid out so much... and i dont even know these guys... like first time i've met them and i'm already being paid out by them...
one of my regulars reckons it's cos i react... also i guess i'm friendly and take an interest so they kinda act like i'm just one of them...
but they are my interns!! so there should be some respect there!! cos otherwise i refuse to sign off on their paperwork and no numbers for them!! hrumph!!
lol... nah i'm having fun... just feel like i'm walking around with a big 'kick me' sign on my back... that ppl who meet me for 5 mins are comfortable enough to start paying me out!
anyway... was thinking about one of my previous posts about the rugby... and how i might need to learn to 'crude up'.
and i realised that no that's not who i am...
i think that what comes out of your mouth reflects the things in your head and heart... and i'm so not perfect in that area... everytime i read the book of James i feel challenged and the Spirit pierces my heart again because i know that i fall down in so many ways.
but i dont really need to add to it all by participating in crude jokes and i think i need to be more sensitive in what i do say even as a joke or pay out.
so i guess on reflection i'm glad that people feel comfortable enough with me to pay me out. and maybe i'll react because i'm innocent and that's who i am... but hopefully people can see that it's cos i'm a Christian...
Sunday, May 02, 2010
what a week...
busy busy... i'm now feeling quite under the weather after a few late nights and eventful days... getting old methinks!!
last week was meant to be a bludge... monday off cos of anzac day. my normal wed off. and thur off cos i took it off cos it's my b'day.
sunday night my chennai superkings were playing mumbai indians in the IPL twenty20 final...
hehe ben had been bugging me before about liking CSK... his deccan chargers were apparently meant to knock out my CSK in the semis but they lost!! so deccan went into 3rd/4th playoff and CSK move to final against mumbai indians. Tendulkar was on fire so i guess MI were tipped to win.
i came home from church tired but determined... at 12-1am i was struggling to stay awake but after that it was awesome. dhoni and raina were awesome in posting 168 for CSK. MI came up short despite tendulkar making a quick 48. tactically they left their gun kieron pollard on the bench too long. but who cares cos CSK won!!
i'm vindicated in backing a team that i'm only backing cos i have a thing for albie morkel... who knows why just have a soft spot for him. he is an exciting t20 player though.
but at 6:30am monday morning i was still up... and still wired... still jumping up and down.
3 hrs sleep and i was due at chuck and hails place to finally play descent. i've declined all previous invites cos they were sun morning or arvo and i exercise then... hails said she was going to get me along and so with nothing else really on that day i went. interesting game. i liked using my magic and blowing up bad guys... fun fun... didnt stay for long cos i was sooo tired and catching up with cyn that arvo.
i think the tiredness started from the 7am bedtime on mon morning and lack of sleep....
thur 29th apr... my b'day... yay
usually i dont like b'days but this one i was determined to make the most of it. and God obliged me with a very nice day.
i planned not to work but had a few patients i just had to see... managed to do that early and then be out of there by 10:30am...
then went collecting freebies - free movies at hoyts, free boost juice... yay!
so i went to mandarin centre and saw whatever was convenient which ended up being 'the last song'. was an ok movie except for miley cyrus. no hannah montana for me!
met daph for lunch at sushi suma... reminded me of old days. callum was good and took formula and gave me lots of smiles so it made my day.
then back to chatswood for la premiere... saw iron man 2 which was meh... i think if i was into comics then i might have liked it better. just another action movie for me... but the free popcorn and drinks were good.
popped over to mum and dad's for dinner...
fri - i think i'm fat enough but my patients didnt seem to agree... today they came bearing food. i have no idea why. so i had cupcakes and yum cha goodies (cos one of my patients is a yum cha chef). out to the CT for dinner with marika and trace to celebrate my bday and marika's too.
girls piked on drinks... out to opera bar with clive and then ended up at ivy... soooo tired after...
sat - smak and millie's wedding... what to wear?? i have a heap of dresses i dont wear but still am indecisive on what to wear... maybe it's a girl thing... or maybe just me... i'm really indecisive!!
last week it took over an hr to get to kirkplace for rice regenerate... so left plenty of time... and ended up making it there 15 mins before but the place was pretty packed. i thought they might have trouble having that many people in kirkplace but it was all good in the end. was a very laid back wedding. lots of fun.
sooo funny... we were hanging around and ppl were saying 'go for coffee' and nobody could decide on where... and then by the time we said a place it was pretty much too late. we were on our way but traffic was bad so phoebs decided we would drive straight to the reception.
the reception was also a lot of fun. great to catch up with ppl i havent seen for aaaggggeeeesssss!! and the groove on the dancefloor was also fun.
mike's speech was hilarious... some of it i'd heard before (maybe at smak's 21st).
think smak and millie are a great match. the week before at rice i was talking to millie saying '1 week, 1 week!! are you excited?'
her reply wasnt 'yeah 1 week to the wedding' it was 'yeah in 1 week we'll be eating'... soooo funny... thinking about food... smak chose a girl with the same focus as him (apart from God of course).
this morning (sun) i'm feeling pretty tired... ended up waking up late. hadnt even looked at the music for church so thought a practise might be in order.
turned on the tv... that's what i love to wake up to on a sunday morning!!! merlin is on!!! a shirtless bradley james just made my day... i've seen the whole 2nd season though cos i have it already on dvd from the UK... bradley james... ok will shut up now and go watch...
last week was meant to be a bludge... monday off cos of anzac day. my normal wed off. and thur off cos i took it off cos it's my b'day.
sunday night my chennai superkings were playing mumbai indians in the IPL twenty20 final...
hehe ben had been bugging me before about liking CSK... his deccan chargers were apparently meant to knock out my CSK in the semis but they lost!! so deccan went into 3rd/4th playoff and CSK move to final against mumbai indians. Tendulkar was on fire so i guess MI were tipped to win.
i came home from church tired but determined... at 12-1am i was struggling to stay awake but after that it was awesome. dhoni and raina were awesome in posting 168 for CSK. MI came up short despite tendulkar making a quick 48. tactically they left their gun kieron pollard on the bench too long. but who cares cos CSK won!!
i'm vindicated in backing a team that i'm only backing cos i have a thing for albie morkel... who knows why just have a soft spot for him. he is an exciting t20 player though.
but at 6:30am monday morning i was still up... and still wired... still jumping up and down.
3 hrs sleep and i was due at chuck and hails place to finally play descent. i've declined all previous invites cos they were sun morning or arvo and i exercise then... hails said she was going to get me along and so with nothing else really on that day i went. interesting game. i liked using my magic and blowing up bad guys... fun fun... didnt stay for long cos i was sooo tired and catching up with cyn that arvo.
i think the tiredness started from the 7am bedtime on mon morning and lack of sleep....
thur 29th apr... my b'day... yay
usually i dont like b'days but this one i was determined to make the most of it. and God obliged me with a very nice day.
i planned not to work but had a few patients i just had to see... managed to do that early and then be out of there by 10:30am...
then went collecting freebies - free movies at hoyts, free boost juice... yay!
so i went to mandarin centre and saw whatever was convenient which ended up being 'the last song'. was an ok movie except for miley cyrus. no hannah montana for me!
met daph for lunch at sushi suma... reminded me of old days. callum was good and took formula and gave me lots of smiles so it made my day.
then back to chatswood for la premiere... saw iron man 2 which was meh... i think if i was into comics then i might have liked it better. just another action movie for me... but the free popcorn and drinks were good.
popped over to mum and dad's for dinner...
fri - i think i'm fat enough but my patients didnt seem to agree... today they came bearing food. i have no idea why. so i had cupcakes and yum cha goodies (cos one of my patients is a yum cha chef). out to the CT for dinner with marika and trace to celebrate my bday and marika's too.
girls piked on drinks... out to opera bar with clive and then ended up at ivy... soooo tired after...
sat - smak and millie's wedding... what to wear?? i have a heap of dresses i dont wear but still am indecisive on what to wear... maybe it's a girl thing... or maybe just me... i'm really indecisive!!
last week it took over an hr to get to kirkplace for rice regenerate... so left plenty of time... and ended up making it there 15 mins before but the place was pretty packed. i thought they might have trouble having that many people in kirkplace but it was all good in the end. was a very laid back wedding. lots of fun.
sooo funny... we were hanging around and ppl were saying 'go for coffee' and nobody could decide on where... and then by the time we said a place it was pretty much too late. we were on our way but traffic was bad so phoebs decided we would drive straight to the reception.
the reception was also a lot of fun. great to catch up with ppl i havent seen for aaaggggeeeesssss!! and the groove on the dancefloor was also fun.
mike's speech was hilarious... some of it i'd heard before (maybe at smak's 21st).
think smak and millie are a great match. the week before at rice i was talking to millie saying '1 week, 1 week!! are you excited?'
her reply wasnt 'yeah 1 week to the wedding' it was 'yeah in 1 week we'll be eating'... soooo funny... thinking about food... smak chose a girl with the same focus as him (apart from God of course).
this morning (sun) i'm feeling pretty tired... ended up waking up late. hadnt even looked at the music for church so thought a practise might be in order.
turned on the tv... that's what i love to wake up to on a sunday morning!!! merlin is on!!! a shirtless bradley james just made my day... i've seen the whole 2nd season though cos i have it already on dvd from the UK... bradley james... ok will shut up now and go watch...
Monday, April 26, 2010
Anzac day
ok i'm being cynical here...
i'm looking at the shows on tv during anzac day...
and comparing it to easter time.
i remember 'the passion' and even some other movies about moses and other biblical movies being on tv all though easter... this year... none... just lots of secular tv...
there are more war dramas being played at anzac day than biblical dramas at easter time. really cheeses me off... how did we become so secular. i mean why does australia celebrate easter if people just forget what it's really about?
this is me being very cynical here...
and i dont mean to be dismissive of the way soldiers gave their lives for this country. i just am making a point about the values of the country...
i'm looking at the shows on tv during anzac day...
and comparing it to easter time.
i remember 'the passion' and even some other movies about moses and other biblical movies being on tv all though easter... this year... none... just lots of secular tv...
there are more war dramas being played at anzac day than biblical dramas at easter time. really cheeses me off... how did we become so secular. i mean why does australia celebrate easter if people just forget what it's really about?
this is me being very cynical here...
and i dont mean to be dismissive of the way soldiers gave their lives for this country. i just am making a point about the values of the country...
Sunday, April 25, 2010
rugby... again
was ladies day at the rugby today 24/4/10... guys get to bring their significant others and ladies get a free glass of champagne while watching their boys smash each other... fun... fun...
still not getting the draw of running into each other and smashing each other to the ground with the objective of getting a ball to the other end of a field...
guy thing...
things that happened today... nice fracture/dislocation of an ulnar... it was kinda gross cos there was blood and the bone was nicely sticking out of the skin... just covered it with sterile swabs and waited for the ambulance...
the guy was really good and was telling jokes through it all... dunno if that was his coping mechanism or him being stupid with shock...
other thing that happened... and i'm shaking my head cos only guys would be so silly...
guy got wacked in the nose and had a blood nose... so the guys solution to the problem was to ask around for tampons cos they wanted to stick them up the guys nostrils to soak up the blood...
me - i got the guy to tuck his head and let the blood run out and then pinched the bridge of his nose and put ice on his neck... the bleeding stopped and we didnt need tampons after all!!
seriously... those guys must be watching too much of "she's the man" - the movie where channing tatum sticks the tampon up his nose to stop the bleeding after having a fight...
still shaking my head... only guys...
still not getting the draw of running into each other and smashing each other to the ground with the objective of getting a ball to the other end of a field...
guy thing...
things that happened today... nice fracture/dislocation of an ulnar... it was kinda gross cos there was blood and the bone was nicely sticking out of the skin... just covered it with sterile swabs and waited for the ambulance...
the guy was really good and was telling jokes through it all... dunno if that was his coping mechanism or him being stupid with shock...
other thing that happened... and i'm shaking my head cos only guys would be so silly...
guy got wacked in the nose and had a blood nose... so the guys solution to the problem was to ask around for tampons cos they wanted to stick them up the guys nostrils to soak up the blood...
me - i got the guy to tuck his head and let the blood run out and then pinched the bridge of his nose and put ice on his neck... the bleeding stopped and we didnt need tampons after all!!
seriously... those guys must be watching too much of "she's the man" - the movie where channing tatum sticks the tampon up his nose to stop the bleeding after having a fight...
still shaking my head... only guys...
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
smbc talk - Christian wholeness in the midst of a depression pandemic
interesting talk tonight...
food for thought...
talked through some of the shapes of Christian wholeness...
http://www.christianwholeness.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=87&Itemid=113
also went through some of the DSM IV criteria for diagnosis of 'depression'
well i can say i'm not depressed... lol... prob the opposite considering i'm so la la most of the time... just cranky when i'm tired or hungry...
so i'm a bit too tired now to download all that the guy said...
these are my lingering questions... or not questions but ponderings...
- the link between anxiety and depression
- the incidence of depression is growing - why is that? i'm guessing environmental or lifestyle factors that have changed. but why? because of prosperity or we are a generation of more choices?
food for thought...
talked through some of the shapes of Christian wholeness...
http://www.christianwholeness.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=87&Itemid=113
also went through some of the DSM IV criteria for diagnosis of 'depression'
well i can say i'm not depressed... lol... prob the opposite considering i'm so la la most of the time... just cranky when i'm tired or hungry...
so i'm a bit too tired now to download all that the guy said...
these are my lingering questions... or not questions but ponderings...
- the link between anxiety and depression
- the incidence of depression is growing - why is that? i'm guessing environmental or lifestyle factors that have changed. but why? because of prosperity or we are a generation of more choices?
Monday, April 19, 2010
rugby
well an interesting twist to me working at mac uni is being seconded to mac uni rugby... considering i dont like rugby...
so i was emailed by admin to ask me if i could do rugby with another person. they were looking for staff with sports trainer qualifications. cos apparently there were other chiros willing to do it but they didnt want them because they needed sports qualifications.
i'm a little apprehensive just cos i cringe at the injuries that we might see... but anwyay...
so here's a little funny story from the first rugby game.. it's actually the 2nd of the season.
i got so lost getting to brighton le sands for the game... i had 3 male interns to supervise. so one of them promises to educate me about rugby cos i dont know much about it.
anyway one of the guys in 1sts got stomped and then was trying to run but with a foot on his foot he just managed to twist his foot...
so one of my guys was looking at his ankle and i was standing near his waist watching. then the team manager walks up and goes "dude are you wearing any underwear?"... the reply was no...
i dont see how it can be at all comfortable having all ur bits loose when ur running around... but anyway... i didnt see anything... when i had to look at his ankle i picked up a towel from the pile and draped him so i wouldnt cop an eyeful.
later when we were packing up we were separating towels and i mentioned the one i used to drape was clean. so one of the other guys asked why i had to drape... so i mentioned the guy wasnt wearing any underwear...
dunno how i manage to cop all the jokes...
this is what i got "i know we were teaching you to keep your eye on the ball but not on that ball...'
and i only came up with a comeback later... which would have been... "now i'm confused cos there's 2 balls... which one do i keep my eye on??" lol
ok a little crude but u know it's rugby guys... i think i'm gonna have to crude-up. and start coming up with faster comebacks...
so i was emailed by admin to ask me if i could do rugby with another person. they were looking for staff with sports trainer qualifications. cos apparently there were other chiros willing to do it but they didnt want them because they needed sports qualifications.
i'm a little apprehensive just cos i cringe at the injuries that we might see... but anwyay...
so here's a little funny story from the first rugby game.. it's actually the 2nd of the season.
i got so lost getting to brighton le sands for the game... i had 3 male interns to supervise. so one of them promises to educate me about rugby cos i dont know much about it.
anyway one of the guys in 1sts got stomped and then was trying to run but with a foot on his foot he just managed to twist his foot...
so one of my guys was looking at his ankle and i was standing near his waist watching. then the team manager walks up and goes "dude are you wearing any underwear?"... the reply was no...
i dont see how it can be at all comfortable having all ur bits loose when ur running around... but anyway... i didnt see anything... when i had to look at his ankle i picked up a towel from the pile and draped him so i wouldnt cop an eyeful.
later when we were packing up we were separating towels and i mentioned the one i used to drape was clean. so one of the other guys asked why i had to drape... so i mentioned the guy wasnt wearing any underwear...
dunno how i manage to cop all the jokes...
this is what i got "i know we were teaching you to keep your eye on the ball but not on that ball...'
and i only came up with a comeback later... which would have been... "now i'm confused cos there's 2 balls... which one do i keep my eye on??" lol
ok a little crude but u know it's rugby guys... i think i'm gonna have to crude-up. and start coming up with faster comebacks...
Thursday, April 15, 2010
misc words/lyrics/prayers
1.
I struggle through challenges in my life
When things dont seem to go my way
and things seem bleak and i'm down
and struggle to trust you day by day
I struggle with temptation and sin
and trying to do what is right
and it's easy to be down on myself
fooling myself to try as i might
C: So i ask you now for your Spirit today
to work within me to show me your way
may your Spirit guide me in the things that i do
Change my stubborn will so i can obey you...
2C:
so search me Lord
and change my heart
make me willing,
set me apart
to put to death the selfish part of me,
to be the instrument you made me to be...
I struggle through challenges in my life
When things dont seem to go my way
and things seem bleak and i'm down
and struggle to trust you day by day
I struggle with temptation and sin
and trying to do what is right
and it's easy to be down on myself
fooling myself to try as i might
C: So i ask you now for your Spirit today
to work within me to show me your way
may your Spirit guide me in the things that i do
Change my stubborn will so i can obey you...
2C:
so search me Lord
and change my heart
make me willing,
set me apart
to put to death the selfish part of me,
to be the instrument you made me to be...
Monday, April 05, 2010
meditation for today...
here is part of another puritan prayer that i'm meditating on today...
Spiritual Helps
Eternal Father, it is amazing love, that Thou hast sent Thy Son to suffer in my stead, that Thou hast added the Spirit to teach, comfort, guide, that Thou hast allowed the ministry of angels to wall me round; all heaven subserves the welfare of a poor worm. Permit Thy unseen servants to be ever active on my behalf, and to rejoice when grace expands in me. Suffer them never to rest until my conflict is over, and I stand victorious on salvation's shore.
Grant that my proneness to evil, deadness to good, resistance to Thy Spirit's motions, may never provoke Thee to abandon me. May my hard heart awake Thy pity, not Thy wrath, And if the enemy gets an advantage through my corruption, let it be seen that heaven is mightier than hell, that those for me are greater than those against me. Arise to my help in richness of covenant blessings, keep me feeding in the pastures of Thy strengthening Word, searching Scripture to find Thee there.
Spiritual Helps
Eternal Father, it is amazing love, that Thou hast sent Thy Son to suffer in my stead, that Thou hast added the Spirit to teach, comfort, guide, that Thou hast allowed the ministry of angels to wall me round; all heaven subserves the welfare of a poor worm. Permit Thy unseen servants to be ever active on my behalf, and to rejoice when grace expands in me. Suffer them never to rest until my conflict is over, and I stand victorious on salvation's shore.
Grant that my proneness to evil, deadness to good, resistance to Thy Spirit's motions, may never provoke Thee to abandon me. May my hard heart awake Thy pity, not Thy wrath, And if the enemy gets an advantage through my corruption, let it be seen that heaven is mightier than hell, that those for me are greater than those against me. Arise to my help in richness of covenant blessings, keep me feeding in the pastures of Thy strengthening Word, searching Scripture to find Thee there.
Sunday, April 04, 2010
Easter 2010 #2
Today is easter sunday. We celebrate the fact that Jesus rose from the dead today. I'm loving the fact that I just have some time off to think, hear my own thoughts and meditate.
Had been looking at 1 Cor lately in quiet times. It was good timing to get to the end just before easter. I was reminded of the importance of jesus' resurrection. God's amazing power is shown in jesus rising from the dead.
When jesus died the curtain separating us from God was ripped apart. Sin was dealt with and we could approach God. but it wasnt the end... jesus had to rise again to show that death - the consequence of sin - had been dealt with. i'm flooded with a series of emotions - wonder, gratitude, amazement that God would keep His promises and act to save me.
Anyway... i guess i cant express it all.
this morning i was reflecting on a puritan prayer that i love so much. it's called 'morning' so i guess it was appropriate to be thinking about it this morning.
Pasted it below:
Morning
Compassionate Lord, Thy mercies have brought me to the dawn of another day. Vain will be its gift unless I grow in grace, increase in knowledge, ripen for spiritual harvest. Let me this day know Thee as Thou art, love Thee supremely, serve Thee wholly, admire Thee fully. Through grace let my will respond to Thee, knowing that power to obey is not in me, but that Thy free love alone enables me to serve Thee. Here then is my empty heart, overflow it with Thy choicest gifts; here is my blind understanding, chase away its mists of ignorance.
I'm just reminded of the gift of each day. Life is often a rat race of one thing after another. How often do i catch myself going through the motions and giving God little thought through the day.
I dont know how to put it all into words. I think it's the language used... loving God supremely... serve wholly... it's big and i struggle so much to do it... actually just to love a little and serve willingly can be hard sometimes...
and i'm glad the writer recognises that the power isnt in himself to do these things... that only God can do these things in him...
so my challenge is to let go and let God do these things in me... i dont find that very easy to do... especially in busy everyday life. and i thought that working a little less this year would help that but it hasnt.
well thank God for easter and the gift of Jesus...
Had been looking at 1 Cor lately in quiet times. It was good timing to get to the end just before easter. I was reminded of the importance of jesus' resurrection. God's amazing power is shown in jesus rising from the dead.
When jesus died the curtain separating us from God was ripped apart. Sin was dealt with and we could approach God. but it wasnt the end... jesus had to rise again to show that death - the consequence of sin - had been dealt with. i'm flooded with a series of emotions - wonder, gratitude, amazement that God would keep His promises and act to save me.
Anyway... i guess i cant express it all.
this morning i was reflecting on a puritan prayer that i love so much. it's called 'morning' so i guess it was appropriate to be thinking about it this morning.
Pasted it below:
Morning
Compassionate Lord, Thy mercies have brought me to the dawn of another day. Vain will be its gift unless I grow in grace, increase in knowledge, ripen for spiritual harvest. Let me this day know Thee as Thou art, love Thee supremely, serve Thee wholly, admire Thee fully. Through grace let my will respond to Thee, knowing that power to obey is not in me, but that Thy free love alone enables me to serve Thee. Here then is my empty heart, overflow it with Thy choicest gifts; here is my blind understanding, chase away its mists of ignorance.
I'm just reminded of the gift of each day. Life is often a rat race of one thing after another. How often do i catch myself going through the motions and giving God little thought through the day.
I dont know how to put it all into words. I think it's the language used... loving God supremely... serve wholly... it's big and i struggle so much to do it... actually just to love a little and serve willingly can be hard sometimes...
and i'm glad the writer recognises that the power isnt in himself to do these things... that only God can do these things in him...
so my challenge is to let go and let God do these things in me... i dont find that very easy to do... especially in busy everyday life. and i thought that working a little less this year would help that but it hasnt.
well thank God for easter and the gift of Jesus...
Easter 2010
well i must say that this is probably the longest time i've had off in a while where i wasn't off somewhere on holiday and rushing around like a crazy chicken anyway...
this easter has been relaxing. i havent had much planned so i've just been able to veg out a lot, watch lots of tv or videos, catch up with ppl either via emails or some kind of IM and also catch up with ppl personally.
easter seems to have come around fast this year. actually the year seems to be just going so fast. i'm trying hard this year not to be cynical about things. it might be my imagination but usually on good friday the tv stations change programming and you'll have movies about the life of Jesus or movies with more Christian themes. with the advent of digital tv, these programs seem to have been relegated to stations like 7two or the like not the mainstream channels. makes me feel quite sad.
at the same time all i can see around me is people talking about bunnies, chocolate eggs etc.
so i decided to google the origin of easter... well actually it started with the origin of the easter bunny [which i'm still a bit confused about]. as with Christmas, a pagan festival time has been made into a 'Christian' holiday. i did decide on friday to stop being cynical and just remember and dedicate myself to reflecting on the real reason i celebrate easter which is Jesus!
this easter has been relaxing. i havent had much planned so i've just been able to veg out a lot, watch lots of tv or videos, catch up with ppl either via emails or some kind of IM and also catch up with ppl personally.
easter seems to have come around fast this year. actually the year seems to be just going so fast. i'm trying hard this year not to be cynical about things. it might be my imagination but usually on good friday the tv stations change programming and you'll have movies about the life of Jesus or movies with more Christian themes. with the advent of digital tv, these programs seem to have been relegated to stations like 7two or the like not the mainstream channels. makes me feel quite sad.
at the same time all i can see around me is people talking about bunnies, chocolate eggs etc.
so i decided to google the origin of easter... well actually it started with the origin of the easter bunny [which i'm still a bit confused about]. as with Christmas, a pagan festival time has been made into a 'Christian' holiday. i did decide on friday to stop being cynical and just remember and dedicate myself to reflecting on the real reason i celebrate easter which is Jesus!
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